feeling *#$*#@(insert weird word here)%@&$^!)

I know I'm kinda strange, to you sometimes
Don't always say, what's on my mind
You know that I've been hurt, by some guy
But I don't wanna mess up this time

And I really really really care
And I really really really want you
And I think I'm kinda scared
'cause I don't want to lose you
If you're really really really there
Then maybe you can hang through
I hope you understand
It's nothing to you

My heart's at a low
I'm so much to manage
I think you should know that
I've been damaged
I'm falling in love
There's one disadvantage
I think you should know that I've been damaged

I might look through your stuff, for what I don't wanna find
Or I might just set you up, to see if you're all mine
I'm a little paranoid, from what I've been through
Don't know what you got yourself into

And I really really really care (And I care about you so much)
And I really really really want you (I really do want you)
And I think I'm kinda scared (But I'm scared with every touch)
'cause I don't want to lose you ('cause I don't want to lose you)
If you're really really really there (If you care for me like you say)
Then maybe you can hang through (Then maybe you can hang through)
I hope you understand (I hope you understand)
It's nothing to you (It's nothing to you, you)

My heart's at a low
I'm so much to manage
I think you should know that (I think you should know)
I've been damaged
I'm falling in love (I'm falling in love)
There's one disadvantage
I think you should know that I've been damaged (I think you should know that)

...My heart's at a low
I'm so much to manage (I'm so much to manage)
I think you should know that (I think you should know that)
I've been damaged (I've been damaged)
I'm falling in love (I love you so)
There's one disadvantage (I love you so)
I think you should know that I've been damaged...

And I really really really want you
And I think I'm kinda scared
'cause I don't want to lose you
If you're really really really there
Then maybe you can hang through
I hope you understand
It's nothing to you...

_________

Currently my only sign of hope... the morning sky in Germany. *burries head in hands and cries*

Currently wishing for:
- A phone call
- A box of Krispy Kremes
- American chocolate
- A really looong hug
- The same type of sleep on the train to Heathrow airport
- Deserted beach
- No assignments
- No responsibilities
- No questions
- No disappointments
- No fears
- No worries
- Just me... God... and the one He's planning for me.